I don't know what to do anymore. Please help.?
I don't know what to do anymore. Please help.? I seriously am at my breaking point. I'm 17 years old, and nobody believes me that i'm depressed. I've been this way for years, but just lately its been getting worse. I can't quit thinking about suicide. I had to make myself walk last night just to keep me from hurting myself. I don't trust my mind anymore. I use to be able to say "Hey, you have things to live for" and it wouldn't really be an option. But now its always coming up. This depression has gotten the better of me, I have alot of things going on, and i'm always depressed because of them. But sometimes its honestly nothing. I can be having a good time, and I'll get depressed and start thinking about killing myself. It sounds stupid and pathetic, but i'm at the end of dealing with this. I don't know what to do anymore. This is getting to the point of ruining my life. I can't function. I go to sleep around 7 in the morning and wake up anywhere from noon to five. I have horrible anxiety and panic attacks. And really bad impulsiveness with anger. I don't even remember, its like I'll blackout. I don't remember why were fighting or what i'm doing. Get help. A good doctor will "believe you" when there is seriously something wrong. If you've seen a doctor that was dismissive, see another one. Feeling suicidal isn't something you should continue to ignore. <br><br>I'll say it again, get help. Go see your doctor, talk to a school counsellor, tell your family. do you have a general doctor you go to? if so, go to the doctor and ask to be recommended a psychiatrist. this is what i had to do when i was in your situation. since the doctor tells you to go, which i believe will happen once you tell how you feel, nobody can make you not go. once you see the psychiatrist, she will recommend a therapist for you to see weekly and you'll only see the psychiatrist once a month for medicine refills and adjustments. this is how all of this worked for me, but i don't know if where you live things work differently or not. <h3 >Source(s):</h3> been depressed for 5 years and a cutter for 3. seeing a psychiatrist and therapist Just this simple help I can offer : <br>do this exercise now and then<br><a href="http://www.jinshinjyutsugent.be/en/mainCentral.html" rel="nofollow">http://www.jinshinjyutsugent.be/en/mainC…</a><br><br>not for too long, but maybe 5 times a day. This is just a simple thing to take a little care of yourself. Don't expect anything, just do it, and make sure you exhale well (don't force it, but focus a little on the exhale).<br><br>And also try and find some good help out there, just to change perceptions, but without forcing anything at all. Maybe look at Esther Hicks movie-parts on Youtube. They work uplifting (and without resistance) for me, it's very important to find the thoughts and words that motivate you without creating resistance. When you find such thing, use it every day, but not too much, just remember it for a while, and see if thinking the thought, or hearing or looking at the small vid makes you feel different for just this while, that's ok.<br>And when it doesn't work anymore, look out for another.<br><br>Try and sleep in time, this is very important for you, you should be in bed before midnight, please take care of that, it's of the utmost importance even if you feel resistance for that in the beginning.. Even if you cannot sleep, go to bed, and sleep on your side. Put your hands between your knees, make sure your pillow sustains the head well (I make it a little higher under the neck), and sleep like this, in the beginning slightly focusing on the exhale.<br><br>Also you can hold your middle finger, enclose the finger with the other hand, with the thumb touching the back of middle finger. Again if you do it, try to do it for 5 minutes, and focus on the exhale<br>You can do both fingers, left and right, or only one, the one that you go intuitively to, if I would say : take your middle finger.<br><br>(If you have questions about the exercises or questions about what you experienced while doing them, you can always mail me at jurgen@jinshinjyutsugent.be , include Jin Shin Jyutsu in the Subject line, so I don't consider it as Spam.)<br><br>Can you please do that, <br>just for yourself.<br>without expectations.<br><br>Thank you. yes going to see your doctor and a therapist would be your best bet, but what if you cant get to one or afford one. that is a huge dilemma when you are trying your hardest just to keep it together. i have a few mental or depression disorders that sometimes needs instant care, but then a follow up long term treatment plan. this is what i did to get help.<br><br>where do you live? try doing a web search of any "low income " mental health centers in your city that will qualify to see you even if you don't make a dime. just type in your area and search around by using words like i said above, or search for free clinics too. <br><br>the point is that you do not want to wait on these things and feelings to see if you get better, by then it is usually much more severe or even too late.<br><br>oh, and don't listen just to the reasons people are telling you to stay here for, also listen and look for yours, because only what YOU hold closest to your heart is what is going to keep you here, and it cant be a person or a materialistic item; it has to be something pure from the earth you want to live to see or for.Page:
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